Retreating!

Hello world!

I'm slacking on blogging.  My bad.  I've even been slacking on my sponsor calls; they've dropped from once daily to twice every three days or so.  It's not that I feel the need to call her daily.  It's more like it's a good habit I've developed and I don't want to establish a precedence of calling-only-when-I-feel-like-it.  Because who knows when I won't feel like it--that'll be the time I need to call for sure.  So I call daily, usually with not much to say except, "Hi!  Just calling to check in.  Talk to you soon!".

But you get the point.  If I should be calling daily, then missing a call every few days isn't OK.  Plus I've been slacking on gratitude lists.  And I haven't been making a meeting every day.  It's not like any of these things is a crisis in and of itself.  I'm going to guess that most people with four years sober don't need a meeting every day.  I just wonder what's going on in my head that I'm moving backwards.  They say in sobriety that you're either moving forwards or moving backwards; there's no staying stagnant.  I gotta get back on track!

That said, in a few weeks I'm going to hit a milestone in sobriety: my first retreat!  Wow!  A women's retreat!  Wow!

I realized recently that I went several years without making a women's meeting.  I broke my streak by accident a month or two ago.  I used to attend a women's meeting every week when I first got sober, and found it an annoying complaintfest about spouses and kids.  It's taken me this long to realize that maybe it was me and not them.

Uh...duh.

But anyway.  I'm going on a women's retreat the first weekend of October, and I'm actually really pumped.  I read the itinerary today and I'm assigned to lead a meeting on Step 7: "Humbly asked him to remove our shortcomings".  There's only one paragraph on the subject in the Big Book (pg 76 of 'Into Action') so I started re-reading the chapter in the 12 & 12.  It's all about humility.  

I dug a little deeper and searched 'humility' on my e-AA iPhone app and realized that just about every reference to humility is connected with spirituality.  The gist is that one cannot have a connection with his higher power without humbling himself.  And I'm realizing now I haven't been praying or meditating regularly at all for a while.  

So maybe I should get on that.  And research Step 7 more.  And meditate more.  And say hi to my HP.  Maybe it'll be that simple to get me moving again!